I left off with a sentence about soldiering on and that's still where we're at. The malaise continues and Karen is getting worn down from it. The hope is that this chemo is making the cancer even sicker. It's certainly been hard on Karen; her fatigue is bad, breathing is difficult, the appetite is gone and on top of all that...well, this list goes on and on.
I'm talking in circles. It seems like those old jungle movies where the quicksand is sucking you in. The struggle just seems to make things worse. On the other hand the struggle is all there is and on the other hand it's not my struggle and yet part of it is.
Some things take longer than we want and that's especially true of trying this third chemo and now the wait until the PET scan to see whether it was worth it.
But we're several weeks away from that. In the meantime that soldiering continues.
This past week we had several friends sit with Karen while I made a quick trip to Boston for an art opening where I have a piece. Strange how odd it feels to leave Karen for any reason. It was only six hours but I can't remember being away that long since this began. It was hard but confusing. Good for Karen who wants me to continue but hard on me who needs every minute.
We carry on.
Photo - Button mobile - a Eileen and Cynthia collaboration
William and Karen - Karen and I have been married for 41 years. Karen's breast cancer has reached stage 4. This is what happens next.