Sometimes your reality is not what you imagined it to be. We sometimes make plans; sometimes we can't follow through. It's hard to remember all the cancelled plans and dreams of late. The movie, Bucket List, was fun but the actual following through with a bucket list is difficult. From the movies one would think that there is some force of will that can be summoned to overcome infirmity caused by the cancer. Sadly wanting to do something is thwarted by the damage that the cancer is causing.
Over the winter Karen had so many spontaneous broken bones that even routine doctor visits were challenging let alone skydiving or snorkeling with dolphins.
Lately though we are getting out and about more and learning how gratifying a trip to the supermarket can be, that the ability to enjoy mundane tasks are a gateway to our personal Zen.
So we are in a holding pattern lately. Karen feels good enough for light activity but not strong enough for a grand adventure. But the weather is improving and light activity means walks around the yard instead of walking around inside the house. This is fine and a gift we cherish. We're taking time to smell the roses this spring....well daffodils, hyacinth and primrose.
After today one more chemo then another week-long break then it's time for another PET scan to see what the cancer is doing. Hopefully it will still remain in hiding from all the hugs, wishes, love and those dreamy buttons.
Buttons continue to arrive almost daily. We've had to abandon trying to sew them onto the original blanket and instead have jars of them in a rotating display! Who knew how big and how much joy we've received from everyone!
Photo - A pair of birchbark buckets
William and Karen - Karen and I have been married for 41 years. Karen's breast cancer has reached stage 4. This is what happens next.