"Begin Anywhere" is a quote from John Cage that reminds me there is no point in waiting for inspiration or the right time. The important part of telling the tale of a journey is to simply begin.
This is a blog about Karen's breast cancer; it was first diagnosed 9/23/13. Until then Karen had periodic biopsies but the results were always a diagnosis of " benign".
That was then but now we are coming up on year since we found that we are not among the lucky 80% of breast cancer cures but instead Karen's cancer has metastasized to her bones. This is stage 4.
So what does a blanket with buttons have to do with this cancer aside from the fact that our alternate title was "fuck this fucking cancer"? Side effects....The latest addition to Karen's medicine regime is Remeron which is usually used as an antidepressant but also has been approved for the off label use as an appetite stimulant. It's hard to keep your weight up when food doesn't taste right and you're fighting nausea. One of it's side effects is abnormal dreaming. It also makes you drowsy so it's taken at night. The second night Karen wakes me up with some emphatic slaps to the butt.
"What..what!!" I mumble.
Karen says, "I've got a solution; a blanket....a blanket with buttons. That should work; what do you think? That solves everything. Don't you think I'm smart?
Her eyes are closed and I realize she's talking in her sleep but I look at her and say, "yes, yes you are smart...and kind..... and all types of wonderful.
She's back to her dreams and I'll add this to my memories of our cancer journey.
Begin Anywhere magnet, photo by William Evertson
William and Karen - Karen and I have been married for 41 years. Karen's breast cancer has reached stage 4. This is what happens next.